Spoon and Fork

To be honest, I really need someone that I can talk to

You know, sometimes, I wish I was born without any feelings. As I'm writing this,I am angry at everything and everyone. The thing is, I hate this feeling. I don't know why but sometimes i have these sudden burst of feelings of anger, sadness, annoying and lonely. I can't share these problems with anyone because I think people won't give a shit about it anyway Even if I try to tell them my problems,I can't. You know why? Because I myself don't know what the hell is my problem! I cannot understand why I have these feelings. Maybe that's why I am/was so desperate to find a girlfriend. So that I can find someone exclusive that I can share my problems with. But then, comes another problem. I don't know how to love. I don't know how to flirt like any other guys. I really wish i can busy myself in internship period in the future. So busy that I can live a solitude and alone life. I really do hope so. You know, the funny thing is, when it comes to givin...

Hey, been quite couple of months since I last wrote on this blog and 2018 is approaching the end so I ought to wrote something. I like to talk about emotions. While surfing the social media such as twitter and Facebook, mainly twitter. I see such a lot of people who are always complaining about their hardship in life, I have no problems with these people as they might view social media as a way to release their everyday tension. However, there is also one more group that is dominant in twitter, I called it the sensitive group. Why do I call it the sensitive group? Because they're such a snowflakes and really like to enlarge a minor issues and thus, creating pointless and senseless argument in social media, which, in my observations, solve absolutely nothing. Another traits of these people is that they complain almost everything in life. People told them they're ugly, they create a whole thread condemning that people action. Sure it's wrong calling people ugly, but whining...

   I was scrolling my Instagram feed this morning and i saw a picture posted by my friend with me and my other friends in it and it says in the caption of the picture,"good friends",now i don't know if he meant that or not but there is one thing for sure,that post make me feel happy and appreciated,in fact,I smiled when I saw that picture,the reminiscence  of past flow into my head remembering the good ol' time.  But what i wanna talk is not about my past memory,it's about doing nice things that will make your family and friends felt appreciated.It's quite funny how little things such as appreciation make  us happy,you know why?Because we humans like to be important to other people,we like to be remembered.

It's official.I'm 20 years old now.I had entered the domain of the 20s people and to be honest,I'm a little afraid of what the future holds to me. Me entering the 20s signify that I am the person who will my own responsibility,not my parents,sibling and friends.And this scares me because I don't know of what the future will hold for me,is it will be a challenging and torturous years or is it will be smooth sailing without any major problems happening in my life. Will I secure a job after this I graduated from University,will I even graduate,will I be able to pay of my student loan.These kinds of thought scares me man.The fear of unknown.Unknown of what will happen next in this phase of life. Here's hoping that I will be strong enough to face of this phase of life.And I'm sure 10 or 20 years from now,as I read this blog then I'll realize of how silly my worry is.My you are strong to go thorough this dear me.

Lately i noticed  that some people, especially Malay people really like to degrade his/own people just to be seen as enlightened, when i see tweets like these, i get soo pissed, like why the hell do you hate Malay people so much, yes i admit that some Malay people are problematic such as mat rempit and so on.But to generalise a whole notion of people with the minorities as a benchmark is not smart, it is foolish. Like this one guy in Twitter, man he is soo bitter towards his own race to the point that he even created a song about it, talk about dedication man. How lovely it is for that guy to use the same dedication to help shape our race to better instead of hating and critiquing it so much. Like I'm okay if you want to critise our race, but at least become someone that is worthy and eligible to critise. Malaysia baru so much la to the point where you can blatantly mock the King and the Royal Institution with solid proof, that is not enlightened you stupid liberals, that is just...

I notice that one my profound weakness in myself is that i tend to judge a person whether my acquaintances or not to quickly without fully understanding the full situation at the moment or at least try to understand the situation. This happens a lot.Like a lot well not to the point of repeating it every 1 minutes or so just constantly judging other people left and right.One time there's a girl that doesn't answer my question,she responded my question quite late because she's had a work to do at the moment.But I didn't know that,and I assumed that she's arrogant type of a person that won't bother to answer my question,by  the way the questions is about mathematics which is not really my forte. Anyway I doesn't get the respond in time that I want.I was impatient.All kind of thought passed on my head on why she still doesn't answer my question.And lastly I passed on a judgement on her,I value her as an arrogant person.I wrote on my Twitter on how I hate...

  So today guys i will be doing a book review about the book that i recently finished reading,that is All The Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr,this will be my first book review so bear with me as i suck at telling stories hahaha but i'll try because i don't want this blog die without any content. Ok the story is realllyy awesome man,i expect this story to be a boring love story when i borrowed it from the library as i want to try to read a fiction novel for once,and boy i'm not dissapointed.The story is about world war 2,it takes place in Germany and France why? Because it have two main character which is unique to me actually because i usually see or read story that have 1 main character so this my first time reading  a story that have two main character. Ok the first main character is named WERNER PFENNIG (i had trouble remembering his name lol),a Germany boy that lives in an area where most of the man will be send of to work at the mine where his fa...

hello guys,it's been quite some time i write something up on this blog,i've been busy lately with my life,naahh,just kiddin',i don't have a life hahahaha,i've just been lazing around as usual. today i want to talk about staying connected with your friends,have you ever felt that you're the only one that is trying to keep the relationship going?no,i'm not talking about romantic relationship,i don't even have a girlfriend (i'm a guy btw),i'm talking about friendship relationship.For some reason i've been lonely when i'm at home,yes i'm grateful there is my siblings and parents,but you know what i'm talking about,there's a difference between feeling lonely because of friends compared to feeling lonely because of family.I don't know how to explain this stuff,you know what i'm talking about. But then again,there's also an opinion that you can't always need to be around with your friends,i partially agree with th...