2021

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The year is 2021, Covid19 is still rampaging through Malaysia, taking many lives with it, mostly those who are unvaccinated. Every day i hear deaths because of it. To the point that I've become numb to the so many bad news, the baddest of news which is death.

This is, the curse of free information today. You've become paralysed because of so many news and at some point, the number of death, is only numbers to you. When that happens, i think I'll be so sad because that means I've lost some part of humanity.

Anyway, aside from the disease, I'm also applying for jobs. And i have to say, I'm afraid. I don't know whether my mental health can permit me working straight away.

There's this feeling you know, of how i think that life is a sequence. But reality is, it's far from that. And, to be honest, I'm feeling so empty, whether this education, that are supposed to fill me, is filling me at all... 

I've graduated, and what have i become. Am I becoming a better Muslim, person? Or am I just like an automated worker that is waiting for instruction. What am I now? 

Does memorising act, law and formula makes me a smarter person? I cannot answer that question. Because if the answer contradicts to my belief,then, these 5 6 years of studying will seem pointless. 

What makes my life better? 
Is it higher salary? 
Nice car? 

Why is it that all my goals need to involve large sum of money? Am i unconsciously a slave to money, assets. At the end of the day, it's only myself that can answer that question. 

Remember, you're not just a husk of shell. Your soul have another universe inside of it, discover it. 







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