Inefficient Month

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This month marks the 2nd week that we fast in the Holy Month of Ramadhan.A month where we suppose to be fill our times worshiping.A month where we abstain from cursing,watching and hearing something bad.But alas,too much free time seems to be blocking my motivation to put extra effort in worshiping.Too busy and you won't have the time to worship while too much free time will weakened and saps your motivation.But it's stupid for me to blame it on time,it is me who is at fault here.Too much lazing around,sleeping,watching movie has weakened my motivation.

I try to find jobs during this long semester break (5 month for god sake) but man,people just doesn't to hire any workers especially if you tell them that you're a student.Being rejected some time really takes my motivation to find work you know,ahh,this sucks.I really want to earn some money but it proves to be tougher than i thought it would be.Anyway back to Ramadhan.I notice if you idling,doing nothing,you tend to overthink stuffs.While some of it are goods like the  metaphysics and question about your belief,most of the time we overthink stupid stuffs,like when your friend doesn't invite you to hang out with them,you start to think,"why they didn't invite me to hang out with them,do they hate me?Which means that all this time,they're just acting good and friendly with me!ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?".Things like that.

Too much free time will also make you lazy to worship and make you lose focus is solat,which is essential in getting your motivation back.Your mind wanders around when in solat and sometimes make you forget which "rakaat" you're on.I think if you're with your friends,you will have much motivation to worship,especially if you're surrounded with nice friends who will always remind you about Islam.Which is why you have to find nice firends when you're in university,join usrah,befriend with the "budak-budak masjid" and learn from them.

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